i dont want to

Have you ever feel afraid with something.. Afraid if your parents will leave you.. Afraid if someone who you love will leave you.. Afraid if your friends will leave you, and another things that make you afraid..
Yes, I have!
I ever feel afraid if sometimes because of condition my friends will leave me..
I don't want to loss everything that I have!!
I don't want to loss my family..
I don't want to loss my friends..
I don't want to loss someone who someday will be my lover..

But I really don't want to loss my friends.. My Laskar Ceria..
Eventough sometimes they are annoyed, make me feel bad, and another bad things, I really love them!!
Eventough boys in Laskar always annoyed me with call me "tante" or scold me "gendut" or something like that, I still love them!! But honestly, it's really ANNOYING!!!
Yeaahh, but I know that's just a joke..

But sometimes I can't share something that I feel.. It's still hard to tell them what exactly I feel.. It's really drive me crazy!! I really want to share everything with them!! But I don't have some confidence to share everything! To share what I feel.. Because sometimes I thinks that my story really not interesting story! So I think it's better to keep it my self.. I think it's good to share something good to them.. To laugh together..

I always want to take a picture with them wherever we go..
Because I know someday we'll be separated..
Because we'll grow and we'll have different think and different idealist!
And I can't do anything.. I just can see those picture when I miss them..